Around noon on July 16th there was a knock on the door of my hospital room and in scurried four little children all anxious to meet their new sibling. They all varied in their reactions...
Brett fell in love at first sight. The way he looked at her was priceless. After everyone had a turn holding Mackenzie she somehow found her way back into her biggest brother's arms and was so peaceful there. Noah was so excited we couldn't have wiped that giant grin off his face if we tried. He was so proud to be a big brother again! Dylan was so-so about holding her. He wasn't scared or nervous, just awkward;) Then there was the proud big sister. Madison was SO incredibly shy to even be in the room she curled up next to Grandma and only peeked out when someone spoke to her. I think the whole experience of seeing me in the bed frightened her a bit but to this day she is Mackenzie's biggest fan. The way Madison looks at her lil' sister is nothing short of amazing. There is already a very special bond and so much love.
I'm still in awe sitting here this morning knowing that my baby is ONE YEAR OLD! This time around everything felt "new" again. It felt like I hadn't had a newborn around in ages and was trying hard to remember all the "rules."
Mackenzie is simply the sweetest baby girl. From morning to night she'll snuggle for as long as you'd like. She loves to play with the older kids and follow them around. She was an early crawler and walker and I'm really thankful for that. It really makes this Mama's job easier when she can get to where she wants to go. She rarely cries or has any sort of bad temperament. What a blessing that is when you have four other children to care for also but what great helpers they have all become.
I feel so blessed to be called Mama. I know the heartache some have had trying to bring a new life into this world. It's hard to put into words or comfort those who are longing for a child. Every time I hear one of their stories my heart breaks a little for them. In a friendly conversation with someone I consider to be a good friend she came right out and said "why do you get all these kids and I can't even have one?" I cried for her, I cried with her and I cried praying with this dear friend in my arms. I know the Lord, my mighty Savior, my heavenly Father knows why our lives are planned the way He sees fit. I try not to complain to others about the rough day I've had, how hard a pregnancy was or even about any other aspect of my life. I am blessed by God beyond measure and want to show other's just how thankful I am.
What a blessing and privilege it is to be the mother today of a little one we call Mackenzie Kate. The day she was born our lives changed forever; for the better and I thank God for another miracle. I promise to raise her in the nurture and admonition of the Lord and to always tell her of His unfailing love and sacrifice for us. Happy Birthday, baby girl! You are SO loved.