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Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Mackenzie's 2 Month
Saturday, September 26, 2009
To be Honest...
There is a system to tagging the clothes that you want to sell. One color is for items that get reduced the last hour of the sale, one color is for items that will not be reduced, and the other color is for items to be donated after the sale is over. As we begin sorting the clothes that people bring there is also a "reject" box that is for clothing that is stained, ripped, "outdated" etc. I was pulling my own things out of the bins and putting them away when I noticed one of Madison's old winter coats had a dirty sleeve. I know I just washed all the coats, so I put a green tag on it and didn't mark down my number so I could just donate it. Again, we don't sell dirty things.
Well, as the sale was going on today I decided to go look around the racks to see if there was anything else my kids needed for the winter. As I was browsing the jackets I came across Madison's. Could this be MY jacket? Sure enough...I looked at the jacket with the same dirty arm and then noticed someone had put another tag on it (I had pinned a tag on it, but left it blank.) Sure enough, there was another color tag on it with someone else's number. I was a little stunned. I tried to think it through a minute and see if there was MAYBE a logical explanation. I couldn't come up with one. I REALLY wanted to not believe that one of the other girls would do that....put their own number on it and try to sell it, but they did.
I was a little heartbroken. Not because I wanted the money for it, or even that someone thought I may have made a mistake and made a bad judgement call. Just the fact that someone standing in the room with me had been dishonest. Please listen, I AM NOT saying that I am in any way perfect or that I am in any way above them. I am just like that person. I am a sinner too. The other sad part was that there is a list of "sellers" and their numbers on the table. I admit I did look at that list. I knew who that person was.
I think the hardest part of seeing someone else's sin is that you immediately are aware of your own. That's why it bothers us so much. I know there have been plenty of times in my life when I was so upset with someone else for doing something, when I myself was also guilty of a like incident.
I did not confront that person. What good would that have done? Probably none. I also didn't want to cause conflict. I ran over the scene in my head a couple times and just thought it would be extremely uncomfortable. Maybe when they get home and get that coat back (bc it didn't sell) they would be reminded of what they did. Does that make me feel better? No. It makes me realize just how much we all need a Savior. We all need Jesus.
I am not perfect. In my lifetime I have lied, stolen, cheated, and done things I'd rather not list. I am a sinner. I try my hardest now that my kids are old enough to teach them about honesty. They really haven't gotten the hang of it. They have however mastered lying. Even a four year old who has never been taught to lie can do it. They were born sinners just like me. I find that my kids will even lie about things that don't matter or even things that they can't possibly be in trouble for, yet they do it.
I have been guilty of doing the same thing many times over. I also know I have a God who is bigger than all my sin.
I came back today after writing the beginning of this post yesterday. In that time I faced yet another great challenge. I faced another situation of honestly...or lack there of...and this is one I cannot write off. I had to face it, or actually, it came to face me. I just don't want to accept it. I will never stop wondering why dishonesty hurt so bad. I am however in awe of God and how he faces this. He loves us despite our sin. He loved us so much that He sent his ONLY son as a sacrifice to die on the cold, lonely cross for OUR sins. He knew of the sin that would consume all of us and sent us a Savior, Jesus Christ.
In the coming weeks, months, years, I will face many truths related to this very day. I will remember, but would rather forget. God hasn't forgotten me. I am on His mind and He is ready to come to me when I cry out to Him. I am crying. Crying tears and crying out for Him.
The verse that was on the back of James' truck when we met and a verse I think of often was this:
"Come to me all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. " The rest of the verse reads "Take my yoke upon you and learn from me., for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
I, along with many others, am carrying a heavy burden right now. I know that my Savior can free us from these burdens. The rest He promises is love, healing, and peace with God. I need it. We all need it. We need Jesus Christ.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Anniversaries
Monday, September 21, 2009
Brett's Big Break
In my May 29th post I mentioned that Brett got new Rollerblades and I hoped it wasn't going to mean he received his first break. Well, he did break his first bone this summer:( He was camping in Ludington in August when he broke his knuckle/pinkie finger. He was playing football with a nerf football at the beach. The ball apparently filled with water and was so heavy when he went to catch it that it just bent his finger the wrong way. He was very brave and didn't cry much. It also helped to wrap his hand so he couldn't see his finger sticking out sideways on the way to the ER.
He had a temporary cast put on for the next two weeks. It wasn't a full hard cast, just hard on the top of his hand and forearm and wrapped with a special Ace bandage. Of course at his age this was a very hard injury to have. He had one month left of summer and now here he was told he had a limited amount he could do. It was heartbreaking first for me. I actually was a little mad too. We were about to go up to the Lake in a week and now I thought to myself "what is this poor child going to do?! He can't even swim on his vacation!!!!" After my initial shock I got over my own pity party and was able to focus on my little guy.
He wasn't going to let this stop him. One morning I was getting everyone breakfast and Mackenzie was crying up a storm waiting for hers. I went to look when the room fell silent only to find Brett had picked her up and was rocking her. He is so kind and helpful.
So, the day before vacation we were told by the doctor about a swimming/diving device for casts. We we so excited and began calling around looking for it. About a dozen calls and 10 different stores we went to, we found one!!! Brett was so thrilled!
It's like a big rubber swimming cap that put on and had a little pump that we sucked the air out to make it air tight. It certainly worked. Brett was under water most of our vacation! He loves to swim. When we got home it even worked out great to shower with. No more big plastic Old Navy bags and hair ties to hold it on!
He had to wear the cast for an additional week after vacation. When we went for his ortho appointment the doctor took the cast off and said his finger was healing nicely. He did tell him no contact sports this fall. Brett was super bummed about that. That meant no soccer team. All the kids were really disappointed. We almost don't know what to do with our weekends now. Brett's been playing soccer for the last 6 years! He will have plenty to keep him busy in the next few months though. He is in band at school now, he's involved in Cadets at church and he's part of Math club. There is still plenty of other things for him to so and other soccer mom responsibilities for me to have.
Brett also wants to thank everyone for all the cards and words of encouragement. He was a little discouraged in the beginning, but after every one's kind words and stories of their own broken bones he felt much better. Thank You!!!
Seasons Change
Then came my second reaction...I feel old. I don't mean physically, but mentally. The last time I went to a bachelorette party was before I got married. I was second to the last of almost all my friends to get married so it's been a while. All the other girls in Katherine's wedding party are either newly married, single, or have one little one. I felt like I was the "old" lady. During the summer they all met up to view the dresses, go to dinner, and see Katherine's gown. I was so pregnant ready to pop I opted out of those activities because my life was simply too full at the time. I would have loved to attend, but we don't always get to do what we want. And, I don't think the dress shop would have been happy if I had tried to squeeze into one of their dresses.
So, Katherine's party was great! Good food, drinks, games and company! Although, I am quite embarrassed to admit it...I was that mom. I always looked at that mom places and vowed to never partake in her actions. But, I did. The very thought of it now makes me cringe. I caught myself at one point rambling on and on about my 5 precious children. I was looking around the room while talking endlessly about spit up, the kids shenanigans, potty training, etc. and could tell I was attracting that smile; that smile of how nice, now enough;) I had a great time with a great group of sweet girls, but soon realized I have entered a new stage of life myself. I was no longer a "young" single girl, a newlywed or even a new mom. I was a seasoned one. One who, in three short months, is about to turn thirty.... *sigh*...One who has five kids, a mortgage, and a child already nearing middle school. I know life changes are just a part of, well...life, but sometimes they go by so fast, sneak up slowly and surprise us.
I'm a little surprised. I guess I haven't had much time to stop and think about it. My days don't include a lot of free "thinking" time. Most of my thoughts these days are about dinner recipes, who's laundry needs to be done next and keeping track of a family of 7.
I will save the thoughts I have about the BIG 3-0 for another post. But for now, as I realize just what an old soccer mom I am, know that I love my life, my family and my friends just as I did before I started going gray. It's every one of those people, experiences and changes that have made me who I am today. I thank God for each and every day I have to glorify Him.
P.S. I am also looking forward to Katherine & Jeff's wedding!!!!!! It been 10 years in the making and I could not be ANY happier for my dear friend. God's timing is perfect.
Friday, September 18, 2009
Ketchup
Some days it's constantly asking for me to get them down something that's been taken away from them (the top of our tv has about a dozen off limit toys,) help get the craft box out, draw a dinosaur ten million times, braid a Barbie's hair, or watch a 'cool move.' Other days it's cleaning up a mess that was just made in a bathroom I had just cleaned. My kids are like magnets to water. I don't know what it is about the bathroom water, but they seem to think it needs to be dumped in bucket fulls on the floor, or used to fill all the kitchen set cups, or even just to drink. I am not talking a cup full...for some reason I can't get my kids to drink water ever, BUT if it is consumed in the bathroom upstairs they will drink gallons of the stuff.
So, this morning as I was on the phone telling a friend that this week was so busy I felt like I was playing "catch up" all week, my kids must have actually have been listening. I just finished rocking Mackenzie to sleep and put her in her bed upstairs. She fussed a little bit more so I picked her up until she dozed again. I was probably upstairs not even 3 minutes when I came down to quite possibly one of the craziest things I have seen my kids do yet. As I neared to kitchen I could hear the kids squealing and right when I turned the corner they froze...there was ketchup all over the floor. Like bright red, tomato ketchup, covering the center of my kitchen floor. After I scared the kids to death by taking in a large breath, holding it long enough to stare at each of them, I asked WHAT IN THE WORLD would possess them to spray ketchup on the floor and swirl it all around with their hands and feet?! The answer I received was this: "we just wanted to play in 'ketchup' like you..." Oh, catch up...
I can laugh about it now. At the time? Not so funny. Just when I think they can't top themselves they do. I bet we could have won ten times over on America's funniest Videos. If only I could catch these things on tape;)
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Plan B
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Two Months Already!
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Dylan Carter
I can still remember where I was on September 11th, 2001 between 7-8 a.m. I was driving to work listening to the radio when the announcers started screaming. The second tower had just been hit. I was confused. It almost felt like a dream. To hear the announcers completely lose control like that on air was a bit unnerving. I remember the drive home that day too. The awkward sound of silence. We were so used to hearing the planes flying into O'hare...now just unbelievable silence. That was a day that I will surely never forget.
Five years later, on September 11th, 2006 at almost that exact time my view of "that" day changed. We were blessed with a beautiful little boy! Dylan Carter was born at 8:38 a.m. weighing in at a very healthy 9 lbs. 15 oz. We were ecstatic! James now had a little birthday buddy.
So yesterday he turned 3. I know I have said it over a hundred times, but I really do wonder WHERE does that time go?! It never really felt like we had a baby for long...Dylan was crawling, then walking at 9 months, and talking in complete sentences we could understand by 10 months! He's always been a little a head of the game, but he really had to if he wanted to keep up the rest of the kids. At just 2 years old he was reciting verses out the Bible!
After Mackenzie was born we started seeing some more of our "baby" coming out. He definitely thinks he's the comedian of the family and when he's not laughing, he's sucking his thumb. All the other kids used a pacifier that I could take away before they were 2, but it's next to impossible to take away a thumb. Every time he holds his little blankie the thumb goes in. Here's a funny story though:
James & I were almost rolling on the floor laughing!
Well, our little baby turned 3 yesterday. It's hard to believe sometimes that our kids are growing up. We hold them when they are born and always say we can't wait until they are crawling, walking and talking....then when they do we sometimes wish they would stop;) Dylan is a regular ball of energy these days. Always trying to come up with a funny phrase or noise to make. He loves being dressed up in princess clothes by Madison or sneaking into Brett's room and finding something to claim as his own. Dylan truly loves his biggest brother and wants to be just like him. I am also finding I do more laundry these days than ever before. Dylan will sneak off and change clothes 3-4 times a day. He always leaves us wondering what he will do or say next.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
The Start of Another School Year
This year Madison & Noah will also heading off to preschool. I always looked forward to my double trouble leaving the nest for a couple days a week, but since Mackenzie was born...well, thinking of getting 4 kids ready, into the car and off to school, only to do it again in a few short hours suddenly doesn't sound appealing. They are going to do great and have a lot of fun in the process, but I am going to really have to figure out a sleeping/eating schedule for our baby. Dylan, Noah & Madison also will go to Story Hour at church w/ my mom one day a week during Coffee Break Bible Study too. They all can't wait!
Brett was SO ready to head back to school. This year he has some of his best buds in his class and a teacher he really wanted. He has also chosen to play the Oboe this year. 5th grade is the year they begin band in school. He is really excited to play. Luckily he got his cast off last week to make that a little easier. He spent 4 weeks in a cast for his broken little finger/knuckle. He is expected to make a full recovery, but that meant no soccer this fall to allow it to heal all the way. He read close to two dozen books this summer and now is taking tests on all of them to receive points in the library. Every year the kids seem to get into a contest who can get more points. Over all he's already doing great.
The start of a new school year also means doctor check ups for the kids. When I took Madison & Noah for theirs the doctor couldn't believe how big they were. He thought they were coming in for their kindergarten check ups! Of course when he measured them they were in the 100th percent for height. Pretty soon they will be taller than me! All the kids go in in the next couple weeks for their immunizations...joy. When asked by the doctor if they eat healthy foods or junk foods my children replied "we eat a lot of chocolate." Next he asked them if they sat in booster seats in the car, to which they replied "sometimes mama doesn't buckle us when we go to grandmas..." Thanks guys. Grandma lives 2 blocks away.
We had a really great Labor Day weekend. James was off all weekend & the weather here was just perfect! We grilled out, strolled an outdoor mall (ok...just I did that;) took the kids to a few parks, went for a bike ride, and set up the pool, slip n' slide, and sprinkler probably for the last time. Goodbye summer!
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Michigan
Last month we spent another two beautiful weeks up in Michigan @ Crystal Lake. Our time could not have been more perfect. Our first few days were spent with good friends who made the hike up to be with us. We had a great time! It was nice having them & sometimes wondered if vacationing with 7 Laslos was a relaxing vacation for them. Ha!
Most of our days were spent at the beach. This was Mackenzie's first trip up to Michigan and I think for the most part she loved it. She spent her naps on a beach towel in the sand or in her stroller under an umbrella. She started sleeping about 6-8 hours overnight so that was a huge plus! She loved taking stroller rides and being held on the beach while she napped the days away.
We had probably the most perfect weather that Michigan had had all year. 80 degrees and sunny almost every day. This is a picture form the one cloudy day. It really wasn't cold, but everyone wanted to make sure that they had a chance to wear the Crystal Lake sweatshirts. The kids didn't seem to mind as we found a huge basket of crafts & paints Grandma Laslo had. For hours the kids painted rocks, make collages and got to use 'Bend-a-roos' for the first time. I took some time all alone to do a little vacation shopping. Good times had by all.
Even with a broken finger Brett managed to have a blast. I don't have very many pictures of him this vacation simply because he was under water most of the time exploring thanks to his little waterproof contraption we found to cover his cast. It was not east to find, but a dozen phone calls and 8 stores later James was able to find it. Brett wasn't able to tube or jet ski or even fish very good, but we sure got our moneys worth in his cast protector. He was busy spotting fish and other creatures down below the surface.
Madison & Noah taught themselves how to swim this year. Really! After only a day the two of them were holding their breath, kicking their feet and swimming with no help! We were amazed! Dylan on the other hand preferred to view the water comfortably from the little tubes and rafts he floated along on.
After Mackenzie was born we were really looking forward to this time as a family to get away from it all. We certainly enjoyed another beautiful time, amazing sunsets, gorgeous weather and a vacation together in a truly perfect place.